I Can't Sleep This Friday Night.
I can’t sleep tonight and I know why, but I wish it was for other reasons than those that be. I will not try to be cryptic, but being that way feels right at the moment. I wish that I knew why this was happening, and maybe I do, yet feel too afraid to face it. I just don’t know what it is that people expect from me. Being only human I can’t promise you more than is humanly...
I Can't Sleep This Friday Night.
Tonight I really felt like I am making some ground on who I am. I have beaten myself up, and I have held myself in contempt. I hope that this is the first day in a string of long months that changes my views. The beginning of becoming a responsible person has shaped me into something new. I can’t quite put my finger on it, bit I know that there are things about me that will change for the...
I have started again, the slow path to self destruction. I noticed it within me a little while ago. I am not a happy person, though that may be what I want everyone to perceive. I am smart, sometimes I think I’m too smart. I can recognize things about the worlds around me that I don’t wanna see. I do anything to make it stop… drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, self-hate. I almost at...
Surrounding the Surrounded
I’m surrounded by an aura of discontent. I woke up this morning feeling as though nothing about me has changed. 25 years of being completely disappointed by my own lack of discipline. I have an hour and half to rewrite a french composition, painting a linguistic portrait of another person, and get back into the groove of my life. These deadlines are small stabs at my own self esteem. I have...
It my day of birth...
Today is my birthday, I am officially 25 years old, and would like to thank my parents for contributing to my genetic and overall makeup.
YOU BETTER WORK!– RuPaul
What are we?
I recently watched a documentary on the future of our food. I got really hungry because I became too scared to eat. The genetically altered food is made by introducing bacteria and viruses into our food to break down cell walls and allow the genetically modified genes into the cell walls of the seeds that will later blossom and produce the produce that we will consume. After that documentary I...
You better WORK!!
Tonight was a really tough night. On top of focusing all my attention and energy at school, my boss has been asking me to pick up some extra time at the restaurant. I am in no position to complain about the extra money I’m making, it just seems that tonight was a whole new realm of stress. Her job is extremely demanding in and of itself and had it been any two other servers there tonight it...
I once read a poem by a poet His poetry was beyond poetics. I pondered and pried. Praying to positively know. Poking my thoughts and prodding for answers. I pulled all the stops and predicted the outcome. Plus I pronounced my polluted politics. Praying it would possibly please someone to know my ponderings. I played and predicated. I am just another prick. Possibly polluted.
The loneliness is palpable.
Sleepless Rainy Nights
I can’t sleep again, but with the hours I keep I can’t really complain. As it rains outside Isis, my cat, is sleeping soundly on my bed. I envy her. Her life consists of toys, affection, food, and the love I bring her every day. There isn’t much I can do right now as my body and mind are both overwhelmed with the day’s luggage. I’ll try my best to swear I’ll get...
Sinking into a deep dark place and tumbling slowly downward is for the pathetic,...– Danh Nichols
My schedule no longer matches up with anyones. I’m there for a lot of people when they need me. I feel the end of it coming soon and will no longer sit idle as my life is absorbed by others needs for validation and resurgences of emotions past. I want to enjoy my life’s success and feel no pity anymore for anyone other than the pity I’ve created for myself. Heed my word world and...
The First Friday
Today I woke up and decided I would skip my first class. I don’t know why, seeing as it’s the most important class to my education in linguistics; I didn’t care. I needed a little time to get my shit together before heading off to Tempe to flood my brain with information; hoping that some of it will actually stick. Well, in doing so I forgot my light rail pass and had to...
My house has many room, I occupy but a few the rest remain unvisited.– Lindsey Peterson